An Open Letter to My Future Wife

 Hey You,

 

It's funny to observe the dichotomy in the fact that I want to write so much to You, but am simply unable to have any coherent thought the moment I start to. Sounds a lot like formulating what consciousness is in my view of the world, but that's for another time. Three years ago, I would'nt have had the slightest inclination to write down something like this. Ohh have I grown with regard to that! I don't know if I have anything particular to say to You tonight. I know we're not in each other's lives yet, and maybe it will take a while before we meet. But I'd rather take the wait than rushing into the process. I, as I am currently, need to grow a lot in life. I need to love myself first before I can love You. It's a long journey and I am working my best to get there as soon as I can. All I would ever want for us is to love each other unconditionally, and build our journey on a foundation of unconditional faith and intent. That is all I will ever need from You, and from me. And with everything that's happened in my life, I need to build myself to get there. My tryst with love so far has not given me all of it either, and probably that is why You're not in my life yet. Any other Valentine's day, I'd feel sad for being by myself, but tonight's different. I don't, for some reason. I feel hopeful and strong that we both are moving towards each other as fast as we can, and the dots will connect one day for the both of us. While my view on the world presses on me to be pragmatic, I simply cannot ditch on romanticising life. So here I am, trying my attempt to pen this down. Maybe someday I will try to string together a more coherent piece thinking about You. But tonight, I simply pen down my hope and faith here.

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