An Open Letter to Myself
Hey You, I've always had that I will use "You", with the capital emphasis, for the person I love. It always gave me a "The One"ish vibe. I guess I forgot loving You in the process. I don't think I've ever really loved You, respected You. With so many baggages since childhood, I don't think I ever truly could. I guess I owe it to You to start now, it's high time. You've had a rough childhood emotionally. 8th to 10th was not a particularly happy time for you. You lost some close support and grew lonely for that while. That's stayed all these years and You carried that into your relationship. Deep down, You've always been afraid of dying alone, that people won't love You back. Add to that Your practical distancing from any female contact and You've never thought You'd be worthy of ever being with someone. Yeah, that was bad. Suddenly Your relationship happened and for the first time in Your life, You felt loved and accepted. ...