Confessions of a Digital Nomad

What if we model our internal state, our measure of what emotions we feel at any given point in time, mathematically? What if we put numbers to indicate what we feel and maybe try to gain some insight out of it? A train of thought I stumbled upon lowkey blew my mind today. Let's say following the theory of having six basic emotions, the emotional state of a person is one of these six states, denoting one of happy,sad,disgust,anger,surprise,fear. You'd want a person to be stable in the midst of chaos, an ability to keep their calm in the presence of the enormous uncertainties of life. I'd argue the goal in life is to not remain in a perpetual state of happiness. Let's face it, that's simply not plausible (or perhaps it is, I've been so fascinated by the limits of meditation and the neuroplasticity of the mind to get you to a place of biss). The goal rather is, to be able to get oneself back to a state of happiness, no matter what the initial state is, and do that...

 Overthinking engulfed a significant portion of the past couple years of my life. These were issues about me which I was plainly oblivious to, until of course I entered a relationship. You hurt the people closest to you. You fear your worst fears, not in the sense that love makes you feel them, but in the sense that you spiral about losing love and losing the person you're with. You tend to villanize the people closest to you. Reality gets submerged under the layers of possibilities you cook up in your head, enumerating all possible cases of what ifs, acting on them and ruining your and your person's mental peace. I've honestly tried multiple times to get a hold of overthinking and the anxieties that come with it. Not that I've been successful at it, but the efforts were always true to my core. They weren't consistent though, which might explain why nothing really got me over it. But I feel I never really dug deep into handling these thoughts for myself. I've ha...